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Dec. 19th, 2006 @ 03:23 am stressed
if for some reason people are still reading this...dont give much thought to what i am writing..i am just venting..

so i am a bit stressed. why...well money issues. i hate how i have to work and pick up extra shifts and try staying later..basically doing everything i possibly can to make JUST to make ends meet...and barely at that. i just moved into an apartment with mike. things are going great between us. i couldn't have asked for a better guy. but what stresses me out is that when i look at what i make and what he makes it really bugs me. i feel that i can't contribute even half of what i should. i mean i have been able to buy things for the apartment...thats why my account has gone from something to nothing. but then he buys the pricier things like furniture and it doesn't even seem to stress him at all. he has no money issues and i hate that. i really do. and although it probably shouldn't be bothering me it does. i just want to make good money. not great..not lets start buying primo good shit or anything but at least be able to not think...hmm...can't go OUT to eat...bc i dont have the money. which leads to even the bigger problem. i still dont have a degree to even get a good job. i would go back to school but there are problems there. i dont have the money to pay back my loans right now let alone pay for a new semester. so what am i left to do. i work at applebees making not so good money. its like a vicious circle. and i hate it. i dont know what to do. i just want to clear everything finacially from my past and start over. but i can't. ugh i am so stressed out and i hate it. i hate feeling inadequate to my boyfriend over money. i am sure some are like...thats how its suppose to be. boyfriends help buy things when you can't. but i dont like that. i want to be able to say no sweetie let me buy that...without thinking....shit...there goes more money i dont have.

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May. 14th, 2006 @ 12:42 pm
so i really havent been using this that much.

if anyone is still reading this and wants more uptodate information

check out myspace

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Mar. 7th, 2006 @ 12:21 pm small update
so i think that my parents are actually going to get divorced...wow

things are working out where i am getting a different car...thats exciting

mike and i are doing fabulous. couldnt get any better.

its been almost a year since it ended...wow

things are really different now then they were. i think i like the change...yea i really do.
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Dec. 14th, 2005 @ 10:02 pm
tonight mike and i finally exchanged the words: "i love you"

i am so happy right now. i love him so much and i am so happy that we met. what we have is love. and i have never had it till now. and lemme tell you. to have real love..what an awesome thing.

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Nov. 11th, 2005 @ 05:52 am
im in love...

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Sep. 29th, 2005 @ 11:02 pm wow...been FOREVER!!
I'm: contentcontent
so not a whole lot is going on in my life...

i'm still struggling to make money at applebees....it just seems i cant get ahead and its really frustrating me. i am wanting to start school back up in january...that way i can get a degree and get a real job. i am switching my major to public relations...i have decided that i would love to have a job where i plan events. i mean plan EVERYTHING.

my mom and i's relationship is completely over. she hasnt talked to me in about a month and a half over me calling her a bitch. i mean i know its not a good thing to call your mom a bitch. but she was acting like one. if i was acting like one and she called me a bitch i wouldnt NOT talk to her. thats just ridiculous and immature.

relationship news. i am going strong without an old ex. havent talked to him in months and lemme tell you...this is the way it should be. mainly because of what he did back in december but whatever. on to the new.

i started dating this guy mike a month ago. we met at applebees because he came in and i waited on him once. he came in weeks after that, asked for my number and we have been hanging out since. he is 29 from swartz creek...has the most amazing blue eyes and i get along with him SOO well. ive been going on business trips with him for the past 3 weekends which has been TONS of fun and have given us the perfect time to get to know each other. he is definitely a potential. basically he makes me super happy. i think this is the happiest i have ever been with a guy. i definitely have never been soo comfortable with someone. i dont even think i was this comfortable with chris. actually i know i wasnt. yay for a great boyfriend :::smiles:::
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Jun. 2nd, 2005 @ 12:13 am
so i have decided i am behind on reading...

so if anyone has any good books that i should read...

leave a comment!!

<3 xoxo
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May. 18th, 2005 @ 12:32 pm
so lately a lot of things suck. work sucks completely. i am not making any money, its prom season, and tom is being ridicilous about this transfer thing.

good news is....i think chris is finally going to leave me alone and stop text messaging me. he just imed me and said it was mistake. yea right...you message me with "???" and its a mistake. okay...lie some more. even if it was...it gave me a chance to tell him to stop with the games and just move on and leave me alone. and he said he was deleting me from his AIM list.


maybe today is going to be a good day
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May. 3rd, 2005 @ 02:26 am
I'm: thoughtfulintriqued and tired
I'm Listening to: my bird chirping and playing
so randomly i was looking thru MSN and decided to to go the astrology center. well i got my horoscope and it was quite interesting. when i ready it for the month...the things outlined in there are very close to what i have actually planned with moving to fenton and all.

so weird

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Apr. 29th, 2005 @ 09:00 am
well the snow melted super quick so that is always positive

heather and i talked to tom and in 2 1/2 weeks we will be working at the Applebees in Fenton.

i need to lose weight...i feel like a heffa! haha

i think things with my mom and me are going to go back to normal which means she hates me and we never talk

i have started a new thing...making hemp jewelery. also my friend elise is really handy with making things so hopefully next week we will be able to go shopping for some fabric and i will be able to make a purse with her help.

still doing the single thing. hmmm
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